Zumba will be the death of me!

First and foremost weigh day today and I am down 2.6 pounds! So I am .2 from losing 13 pounds in 3 weeks! I am please with this and it's more that 1.8 so I will take it!

Now to the subject at hand Zumba the class that will be the death of me. Two of my friends Pam and Janet have been on me to take this class for awhile now and I have been resisting but yesterday I took my first class. So I get into the room kinda look around, and ok this will be fun no worries right! I know my ass will get kicked but I will be fine because I need something like this. The instructor says lets come together and begin. The music is fun and we start to warm up. I begin moving my hips and moving side to side and really getting into the movement. I feel like this is going to be fun and I will be burning some calories at the same time great! So the warm up lasts for about 5 minutes and by the time it is over the little Latina in me has come out!

I get a sip of water and wait for the next installment of the class to begin. I got this no worries. Yes worries Claudia the instructor is a spit fire and the warm up was just that a warm up. We get into the next session and 4 minutes in I was huffin and puffin and thought to myself if I die please pay a song from Glee at my funeral. I then look at the clock and ask Pam how long the class is and she says 45 minutes. WTF 45 minutes of this I will die die!

We go into the next section and we are working on abs. Now this is great I need ab work so we begin and I just get very overwhelmed. This is all great but I am beginning to doubt myself. I was a dancer for 23 years this movement should come right back to me, why is my body failing me. Maybe it's because when I danced I was 140 pounds smaller than I am now. So I get to that place in my head where I am so mad at myself for letting myself get this heavy. I am so overwhelmed at this point that I walk out get some air and try to take perspective at the situation.

I step outside and the old me would have left but I pull myself together and go back in! I get through the class(barely) and Pam and Janet come up to me and said you did great this is a fast class and you kept up and besides you have to start slow. At this point I begin to cry I just thought this would be easier for me as a dancer but clearly it was not. I realize that I have not danced in about 11 years but what use to be so natural to me was such a struggle for my body yesterday. The ironic thing is I don't think of myself as overweight in fact unless I see pictures or look in a full length mirror I see myself as the "old me" thin and sassy. Well the real me got a huge eye opener yesterday and instead of running the other way I will face it and be back to Zumba next week.

Thanks Janet and Pam for supporting me and helping me get over the huge hump that was Zumba and look forward(maybe) to next week!

Till Tomorrow!
H