My first holiday how did I do?

I have a tradition of going to my friend Karen's house each year for the 4th and this year was no different. Now a little background, Karen and I have been friends for over 10 years and when we get together trouble is not long to follow. Now I don't mean bad trouble but let's just say I tend to over indulge in everything when it comes to hanging out with her. Now we both are older and don't participate in that kinda behavior very much anymore but I had not seen her in 6 months so I did not know what might happen!

I bought food that was on my lists of things to eat but she is an amazing cook and I knew that I would have to face the demon of mac and cheese. I get there and we start talking and we pour ourselves a drink. Side note she has a pool so I knew that I would be working off some of the calories. Karen had some new friends there and they were funny and really cool. So the day goes on we are outside having some cocktails and enjoying the day.

Karen and I go in the house and she says I can really see a difference you are looking great. Now will you help with the mac and cheese. As superwomen this is my krytonite. So I say sure we have not seen each other in a while this is our time to catch up. So we are talking and cooking and I start to smell the yummyness coming from the oven. Karen takes it out and I look at it and it smells really good. She says have a taste I think I left it in the over too long. So I pick up the spoon and my hand start to shake(not really just for a little dramatic effect) and I take a bite. You know what it was ok but not as good as I remember it. Could it be, has supergirl found away to not succumb to her kyptonite? I think so! It was call seeing one of her friends in a pick bikini and wanting that to be me next year.

I have been wondering why I am resisting like I am. Will power has always been a struggle, what is the difference now? Believe me it's not like I don't want to eat queso or mac and cheese but a few bites are all I need. Does this mean I really will reach my goal. I have set so many goals in my past that I never made and I wonder why this is different? Is it my attitude, my determination, or is it the fact that I don't want to be 40 and on 3 medications? Whatever the reason I will stay the course and for the first time I can really see myself thin.

So for me this really was a celebration of freedom! Freedom from those demons that want me to fail. So happy 4th everybody! It was a great day!

Till Tomorrow,
H