I am not much of a sweet eater really never have been if I had to choose salt or sugar, salt would always win. Yesterday though I had a perplexing day at work but yet again that is another bog! So when I got home all I wanted was a glass of wine and a little dinner but wait I am not drinking so that won't work what do I do?
Well I took a hot bath(I am so sore from working out) drank two bottles of water had a salad and thought: "I will watch So you think you can dance and then go to bed and wake up in the morning a new women!" So I start watching and all the sudden I remember I had a package of Pepperidge Farm chocolate chip cookies that I bought a couple of months ago in the pantry. Now to the above statement that I am not a sweet eater I'm not but I do love chocolate chip cookies!
So I go over to the pantry open the door and there they are calling me: "Heather it's ok just have one" and it was like I had a little cookie monster in my stomach agreeing with the cookies. I pick up the package and look at the calories and fat and just thought there is no way one cookie, one cookie has 140 calories and 7 grams of fat! So I put the package back and go back to the sofa to continue watching. I go through another segment and the commercial comes on and my minds goes back to the cookies. I think but you have worked out so hard this week it's not worth it, but they are calling me as if I don't eat one I will be disappointing the cookies. So I need some guidance!
A friend of mine is staying with me for a while and I look to her for help because clearly my will power is being tested. She says to me "if you really want this cookie just have half you will get the taste and it won't be so bad on the calories and fat". So I debate can I just have half? I go back over to the pantry break a cookie in half and take a bite! I enjoyed that cookie and when I was done I did not feel guilty. In fact whatever I was feeling about work that day went away with every little bite! Side note I know that eating half of a cookie is not what you should do to make yourself feel better but it was half a cookie not a box!
I then continued watch my show went to bed and woke up this morning a new women and there is no guilt. So if once a month I need a half of a cookie I think that's ok because let's face it this is not a diet and if you limit everything one day it just won't be a cookie monster, but a pizza monster, a Mexican food monster, and any of my bad food monsters that will rise up and I will be powerless against it! So I defend my decision and continue on the path.
Tomorrow is weigh day the 3rd one!
Till tomorrow!
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Heather Heather Heather, can I just say how proud I am of you? It's so nice to have friends who realize that life is what we make it. We are responsible for our own life. I know it's a cliche' remark and we hear it all the time on Oprah, on a girls' night out, or on the side of a bus... But some of us don't believe everything we hear. Some of us have to learn from experience. Isn't it such a relief when you actually believe it and it's no longer just a common phrase?
ReplyDeleteYou are doing such a great job and I'm so inspired by the display of strength that you have found within yourself. I find that when I'm battling a weakness, I tend to fall back on another weakness to conquer another. The motivation to be strong inside, be healthy, and make good choices comes and goes. But, your blog really is a motivator and a reminder that we're all in this life together, sticking it out, battling demons, and doing the best we can for that day. Thank you for documenting your progress. I look forward to reading it each day. Love you!
Cammi what can I say thank you for your support! It is so nice to know that we have each other and when we are week we can gain strenth from that! I am sorry that I did not get to spend more time with you on Sunday! Miss you and can't wait till we can dance to Pablo soon!
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