The fog has lifted!

Hi Everyone! Yes I have been gone for awhile and I apologize but the last three and half weeks have been very difficult. You know that I have sinus surgery and I have had some complications. Not to mention all the pain meds put me in a really bad funk! I can't believe all the meds can do that but they can.

Also I have been having a shift at work and it has been a huge transition and I had a HUGE project that I had to finish and I can say I did that last week. This was my mountain and I climbed to the top and scaled down with not too many scratches. But the future here at work looks very positive and I am looking forward to our next semester.

The last couple of weeks I am not going to lie I wanted to go back to some of my old habits (because we all know old habits are hard to quit)! And one day I did I had been crying for a good couple of hours just feeling sorry for myself so I decided that I would eat. So I went to MacDonald's and got one of there meals. I ate it and felt more empty that I did before I ate the damn thing. The funny thing was that for me, eating to feel better was not a habit anymore in fact it made me feel worse that I did without any pleasure and that used to never happen. So something good did come out of it I know that I am not missing anything because my stomach hurt for a good three hours after that. Amazing how after eating healthy for two months can change your body so quickly. So something good did come out of me feeling so bad! I don't need food to define me anymore that are so many other things that can and will define me and I am looking forward to finding all of them out!

All I know is that I had a wonderful weekend with my mom and my birth week has started and I am feeling like my old new self again and look forward to continuing on my journey. I do not that I won't hit my goal of 36 pounds by my 36 birthday but I do think I will have 30 so I am very happy with that and once my birthday comes and goes I will let you know the next goal! I have to say I went shopping with my mom yesterday for my birthday outfit and can say it was fun got a very cute, sexy even, outfit that was a size smaller than the last time I shopped so I was excited.

It feels good to get back to blogging and feeling like my new self again. I have about another week before I can exercise again but who wants to work out during their birth week anyway! Thank you for your patience and all of your support I am back and it feels good!

Till Tomorrow,
H