New Goal!

So I made 30 pounds by my 36th birthday not my full goal but still I am proud of myself! I had a great birthday but now it's time to buckle down and strive to my next goal. My mom, myself, and her close friend are going out of town for her birthday on October 12 so the next goal is to have another 20 pounds off by Oct. 12th. I know I can do this one and by then it will be 50 pounds. Holly Cow! 50 pounds I don't even know what to say.

This summer has been such a learning experience for me with my weight loss. When I was speaking to the massage therapist on Saturday, she could tell that I had lost weight, she was telling me that when we loose weight not only do we have a physical change but an emotional change as well. She was going into have our cells have memory and a main reason why people are unsuccessful loosing weight is that our cells and our bodies remember the bad habits and tend to go back to them. The emotional toll that the weight loss has had on me made what she said hit very close to home. There have been days where I just cry, a song on the radio, a memory from my past, talking with an old friend, anything and I just can't stop. This is my emotions purging their weight if that makes sense.

With this being the first day of school it has been great seeing all my students and they can see the difference! So I continue on my path watch out 20 pounds I am coming for ya!

Till later,
H

The fog has lifted!

Hi Everyone! Yes I have been gone for awhile and I apologize but the last three and half weeks have been very difficult. You know that I have sinus surgery and I have had some complications. Not to mention all the pain meds put me in a really bad funk! I can't believe all the meds can do that but they can.

Also I have been having a shift at work and it has been a huge transition and I had a HUGE project that I had to finish and I can say I did that last week. This was my mountain and I climbed to the top and scaled down with not too many scratches. But the future here at work looks very positive and I am looking forward to our next semester.

The last couple of weeks I am not going to lie I wanted to go back to some of my old habits (because we all know old habits are hard to quit)! And one day I did I had been crying for a good couple of hours just feeling sorry for myself so I decided that I would eat. So I went to MacDonald's and got one of there meals. I ate it and felt more empty that I did before I ate the damn thing. The funny thing was that for me, eating to feel better was not a habit anymore in fact it made me feel worse that I did without any pleasure and that used to never happen. So something good did come out of it I know that I am not missing anything because my stomach hurt for a good three hours after that. Amazing how after eating healthy for two months can change your body so quickly. So something good did come out of me feeling so bad! I don't need food to define me anymore that are so many other things that can and will define me and I am looking forward to finding all of them out!

All I know is that I had a wonderful weekend with my mom and my birth week has started and I am feeling like my old new self again and look forward to continuing on my journey. I do not that I won't hit my goal of 36 pounds by my 36 birthday but I do think I will have 30 so I am very happy with that and once my birthday comes and goes I will let you know the next goal! I have to say I went shopping with my mom yesterday for my birthday outfit and can say it was fun got a very cute, sexy even, outfit that was a size smaller than the last time I shopped so I was excited.

It feels good to get back to blogging and feeling like my new self again. I have about another week before I can exercise again but who wants to work out during their birth week anyway! Thank you for your patience and all of your support I am back and it feels good!

Till Tomorrow,
H